after such a long time didn’t access this blog, here i m.
can i quit ? must be wondering what i want to quit from? quit from job!!!
reason of quiting from job is because i m so tired 🙁 , after seeing an old article posted by paul ‘I am tired’, really feel that why we have to be so tired.
now i really feel the difference between working life n study life, both have goods n bads but working life make me feel like quiting so frequent although i started to work since october 2005, hmm..is just around 8 months experience but yet really don’t have the intention or mood in coming to office. working is like routine, doing the same thing daily except weekend at least i m having such feeling. wake up early morning n travel to work n back home after work n get back to sleep no longer, once i step in office will just wait for the lunch hour n once more waiting for end of work after lunch time, sad thing to say same thing is repeating. i wonder how many do actually enjoy their work, perhaps there r but i m not falling in that group of people at least for the moment.
let c y i don’t like to work, company which i m working with require us to travel either local or oversea, depends on your lucks in joining which project or team. it is undeniable i will gain lots of different experience undergo this and i actually don’t mind. i m not sure is it i m having good luck or bad luck by assiging to travel between EON and Menara Maybank, both are the client of my company. anyway, thanks for company because they make me know where this both banks are after traveling to there. basically my responsibility is to do supporting, testing and debugging when i m there. problem is what i was been trained in the first month is totally different from what i have to do now, eventually we have senior to guide us but my senior seem to be so busy, she has to travel among KWSP, AFFIN, AMBANK, MAYBANK and etc because i m not sure as well. she did teach me what basic thing, problem can be solved when she is along with me but based on her tight schedule n no other team-mate helping her in malaysia, most of my team-mate are oversea including leader, hence my senior got to leave me alone n support/testing/debuggin myself.
frankly speak, i can’t answer all question or problem occur, it seems like i have to answer but yet i can’t give an accurate answer. what i should do? seriously no idea, ask help from some other department’s senior, they can’t answer because they r from different department. get help from my own senior, she is busy n phone sometimes can’t really help much. as a result, the person ask me the problem can’t get an answer n i make him disappointed, i don’t wish to but i have no idea what can i do, no mannual or guideline on what i m doing as well. i got to make notes when my senior demo some to me.
besides from not having sufficient knowledge on what i suppose to do, daily travel also a problem. honestly thing get bad after i move to klang whereby i m staying in my brother’s house. reason of moving because renting house isn’t a good solution, own house will be much more better than renting, do u agree? in between i m not familiar with the KL area if i m going to drive to work,therefore i have no choice but take KTM/LRT after i drive to certain KTM/LRT station.
perhaps i shouldn’t do what i m doing now as in IT field, it is not my choice but i m graduated from that. funny isn’t it? what can i be if i m not programmer? how can i support myself if i m quiting? what can i do without disappointing my colleague? lots of question but i have no answer for them.
……. STRESSSSS !!!!!!!!!